To love oneself is not a disease. It is health.
To respect oneself is to love oneself, and it is health, and it is more than health. Love and compassion for self is love and compassion for the universe, love is a state of perpetual sharing, it is a spiritual act of honoring the divine- a humble recognition of the gift of being able to find within what is greater than oneself and to reflect what is greater than oneself by honoring the self as part of the divine, as an integral part of the universe.
I love myself. It is not a disorder. It is acceptance. We can stare into our souls forever and we will still not understand all there is to understand, but we can love what we do not understand, we can surrender and be vulnerable to the truth: that the truth is not something any of us can comprehend but that all of us can entertain and glimpse and try to fathom. To love is a choice that we make every day, no matter what obstacle within or outside of ourselves that we face, no matter what our weaknesses may be.
If I do not recognize myself as worthy of love and if I declare that I do not love myself, those who have not learned to love themselves will say I am deficient. If I recognize myself as worthy of love and if I declare that I love myself, those who have not learned to love themselves will (still) say that I am deficient. The judgment of those who have not learned to love is static, is stagnant, and in order to love, one must set it aside, find a space away from it, so that one can continue to learn to love. To be hated or pitied for loving oneself is better than to be hated or pitied for hating oneself. Infinitely.
One cannot prove anything to anyone, but one can be herself and love herself in the midst of a universe of suffering, chaos, confusion, compassion, and creativity. One can have her own narrative and, in moments of grace, be released from any narrative that oppresses her. Love is higher learning. There is no learning higher than love.
So love. In the midst of all you are made of, in the midst of all you are lacking, love.
To love oneself is not a disease. To love oneself is more than health.
It is grace.